had acted pretty shabbyly about it, but they talked so good about it and hadn't eaten any dinner either, that I got in a good humor. We arrived home about ten o'clock that night. Floyd & I had a long chat that night. Never went to sleep untill about two o'clock. I suppose you can guess what we were talking about.
Emma, I had a terrible spell of the blues after Floyd &Jimmy left. I went to studying about the few days I spent with you (and one went buggy riding especially) and thinking probably it would be the last I would ever spend with you, now that you are another's, or rather promised to another, that it nearly killed me. Emma, I had to leave home and go see Add & his wife so as to divert my mind from the subject. I know, Emma, my case is well nigh hopeless, but this I know, Floyd can never love you more sincerely or with a more heart whole love than that I bear you.
"When lingering through this weary life,
If thou shouldst feel undone,
Remember, in this world of strife,
To love thee there is one.
I have one request to make of you, and that is, please don't let anyone see this letter. The resolution of your sweet kisses will remain with me as long as life lasts, and when I come to press a dying pillow, I shall think of you till the last moment. I wish I had been at home when you stopped at our house when going to Center Pt., things might have been so different. But enough of this, for I know you are tired of it.
I will tell you now, Emma, you need not fear of my mistaking anything you write from this on, as I did before we came to an understanding. But when you write me what you promised (if there ever falls to my lot such bliss), write plainly "there is hope for you." I will never mistake that.
Brewer, John C. [Letter from John C. Brewer to Emma Davis, January 3, 1879]. The Portal to Texas History. http://texashistory.unt.edu/ark:/67531/metapth128725/. Accessed February 1, 2015.